everybody’s crazy for power and power is all they need me, I’ve got surplus energy I got it coursing through my veins I’m a mini hiroshima I’m an improvised device I’m going supernova right in your fucking face this a spontaneous detonation I have become a killer my love has turned to hate I walk a murderous path with violence in my hands and anguish in my heart
10 December 2024
2 December 2024
live now pay later
I’ve battened down my hatches I’m now fully submerged into my approximate cliché am I drowning? don’t tell me I’m drowning is this hell? please tell me we’re not in hell is this the niche that's carved me? the petty bourgeois hero of countless banal fantasies panhandling for change in the world of broken actors
the inner eye never lies and I can read my chart I was high on the great deception but I never had a dime my life just flushed before me sixty years a loser and always arse deep in debt but I’ve been informed by my sponsor of a happy ever after coz there ain’t no paupers in heaven and there ain’t no tally men either seems like folk in heaven are having a hell of a time
1 December 2024
cockroaches
this is cockroach weather the season of decay I’m staying indoors – less cosmic radiation it’s the rays that wear you down in the end ultraviolent radioactivity desiccates the flesh and leaves the husk behind but my body is a temple secluded and derelict hidden in the shade
I
read somewhere that life came to this planet on comets I
wonder how it will leave they say
that when we have finally fucked this world up all that will be left are
cockroaches maybe that’s all we do that’s of any
significance we feed the fucking
cockroaches the true masters of planet earth
you
can’t kill them with pesticides or atom bombs there’s evolutionary excellence for you –
to eat shit and never die unless someone flips you on your back the
cockroach god is waiting for accidents like that I
saw this movie once where cockroaches learned to impersonate people it turned out to be true there are billions of cockroach
people who look like me and you
29 November 2024
thermodynamics
oh man this is too easy thermodynamics natural flight I’m just a snow flake in a snow drift just breezing along at the speed of light that’s me skyjacking eight miles high and climbing there’s good news spreading through my body good news unfolding in my mind I’m turned on to something fantastic but how long can I soar before I must crash and burn?
28 November 2024
the beautiful life
sometimes it takes an age for the penny to finally drop it seems I was the last to know that I carry the weather in my head and can only make hay when the sun shines this life is short and that's a fact there will be pain you can count on that I got the call up to become a believer but their words are just moonshine for the gullible and feeble I could appoint a personal saviour or simply save myself and do the world a favour I might become a human being or go on toiling as a beast without ever seeing that the beautiful life is the only life worth living
27 November 2024
valediction
I fashioned this cruel distemper from accursed fleshy instruments and dark intentions I bit the hand that bled me and poisoned the well behind me it’s too late to throw a blanket on my grave I’m frozen root and thorn a few will sing my praises many more will mark my passing with revelry and scorn
I was the author of misfortune I was callous and unkind I was a drunkard and a lecher a bloody handed sinner who left no stone untroubled in the pursuit of a good time I’m a criminal by nature and now I have been caught so commend me to the cold dark earth without a second thought
26 November 2024
13
the thirteenth unlucky apostle was the bastard son of a bastard son and when the lights went out he was nowhere to be found no-one knows his name but I’ve seen his face I have his number he’s a little less than holy but more profound than some he called himself a drinking man and there was a certain kudos in that among the poor and the derelict and why not? what else is there to do here in the city of pain? he was hard boiled and numb his patter was filled with blood but he sometimes pissed the bed and he reeked of booze and fear when asked about his friends he could not recall their names I think perhaps he lied he may have been ashamed
25 November 2024
psychiatry
they altered my prescription to keep pace with the times they want to pin me down to sanitize my mind but I can't get with that I'd rather be considered crazy than join the living dead who serve their damned machinery they've devised an inquisition to cure me of insanity they say that chemical infusions will bring me to reality but they just want to steal my high and send me to work in a factory
24 November 2024
crazy love
so much for easy lovers who will not heed the call who measure out necessities because they’re afraid to fall I have loved as others yes but I had crazy love even when it seemed futile I had the crazy love and in the face of hate I dished out crazy love when I had the hard edge on and my words were sharp as knives I did not ration my feelings I killed for crazy love
23 November 2024
aesop
kudos big man you’ve got it
all sown shut no cunt’s doin’ what you’re
doin’ I don’t know what you’re selling but it’s the dog’s bollocks cannot
get enough you should publish
brother you’ll make a fucking mint… another punter gets a free dose and says
he liked it but I’ll never see him
again I don’t really mind but it’s
paying customers I need before I’m weaving shadows and I’m moth-eaten wafer thin
I got papers going back decades they’re worth something to me but
they won’t pay the rent I know
stories that pay off with a kick in
the knackers I stitched them all together on endless reams of pulp I’ll
read you one now for a small
consideration simply grease my pocket I’ll pour moonshine in your ear it won’t taste all that sweet but I promise you won’t care
individuals
there’s no rest for the wicked I should know I get no rest even in my sleep I sing the watered down blues old men’s songs idiot verse for the hard of thinking god has blessed the common people they got nothing but pipe dreams and empties but they shall inherit the earth it’s a bovine compact strictly for the herd that’s an evolutionary advance over the individual the individual don’t stand a chance I should know I got bread but no butter I’m a rare commodity like dragon’s teeth no-one has ever seen any but we’ve all seen the movies where everyone’s an individual hero of some dime store melodrama airing on daytime television along with our life insurance options and burial plans coz in the midst of life there is death and in the midst of death there are tears old men sing the watered down blues and the herd fashion icons from their dust
something shines eternal
is love a universal energy? is it love that keeps us human? some people know no love they are human nonetheless allegedly cast in the image of a long-dead god a persistent schizophrenic who pits us against ourselves everybody’s been found wanting in his theatre of distraction I know what I lack and I don’t give a damn
living on planet earth
in this 21st century
has been a real kick in the teeth
I was all set up for the
socio-technical revolution I was
prepared to be blinded by science
but all I got was fake news
conspiracy theories and the
new fascist state the world seems
darker now but something shines eternal and
it can’t be found in scriptures folklore or even those stars above something shines eternal and some have called it love