love is a mutt that follows you home an overfriendly guest with a huge appetite still, it’s your dime… and it’s better than being alone… isn’t it? well, isn’t it? or are you too tall for love? too proud to stoop down low? would you rather be a master than a slave? well, love makes slaves of us all some say love is life and indifference is death surely it’s better to serve something anything than suffer that gradual asphyxiation?
21 April 2024
10 April 2024
dear reader
we are all of us acquainted with sorrow and that being said we’re maybe better for it if that’s the natural order and it seems to be dear reader we have suffered we have suffered to our shame I hope for your sake that your greatest regret in this season of regrets was an affair of the heart that’s where it counts because that’s the best of us that’s where we live love and betrayal it’s a fearsome thing but the crimes we commit for love are perhaps our saving grace
6 February 2021
love bomb # 5 (covid blue edit)
where is my vodka and the nubiles
that I ordered? I need a filler for an empty bed some-one to sooth me and help me negotiate
the lockdown I don’t
need love or anything transcendental just serve me sexuality and make it a big slice
it’s
been a lunar year since I tasted something nice back
when I still had lovers in a former paradise
I appreciate
the science but the science is killing me I’ve
been walking around in circles in something of a daze and
I’m dying to reacquaint you with my secret ways so why don’t you come over clandestinely and spend a couple of days
I’ve been waiting for a woman who
will not run and hide
to come to my amusement park and take a forbidden ride so say you’ll come on over later when it gets dark it’s a breach in
regulations but
it could just be the spark
that detonates our love bomb and gives us both a lark
7 October 2020
sharks
she
spoke red it’s
a very old trick
but it gets your attention like
a loaded gun but whatever
she said I
paid no mind it didn’t
mean nothing she
was just having fun I’m the same when
it gets down to it and it gets down to it often
enough
you
have to dig deep if
you’re gonna crash out but you got to stay sharp when
you slip your collar
you must forge your papers and
murder the past
we were both killers honed
to perfection too well
matched to do no harm
they
tell me baby sharks
eat their siblings I
know people who are
worse than that they
think they are special
because they feel no fear that’s
completely reflexive
but it sets them apart I’ve been bitten more than once but she bit deepest she could still take a
piece whenever she wants
23 September 2020
assassins
some
tender moments remain uncharted those
rendezvous are covert affairs
instant hook-ups are of little
consequence cause if
nobody knows then nobody cares but beyond the cheap thrill and the base gratification it’s still a charade I was
never really there
I severed
those ties with definitive force I cut them off and cast them out then I set them on fire powdered the ashes and buried them deep far far away but they haunt me still the flesh of my flesh that lost appendage cleaved from the
bone a bloody sacrifice to some lesser evil they’re a revenant organ or a phantom limb they’re a forbidden exhumation and a filthy
itch I long to scratch
those
stones we so carelessly cast birthed ripples of unforeseen dimensions now there’s a tsunami of shit about
to engulf you and I and we shall reap
more than we ever sowed in yet
another dismal harvest of sorrow and despair
our
practiced tongues wove convenient fictions from little grey lies which we honed into truths sharp as knives some kinds of love can smell like hate some kinds of devotion feel like possession
there are
truths made of lies like the stories told
by jealous souls of bitter adoration where
romantic weapons are used with cooler calculation yes some kinds
of love are poisoned daggers wielded by lovers who are gentle assassins
18 August 2020
Casanova
I’ve seen your data
you need sunshine
so come over here
to share in the light
and we’ll roll together
our limbs entwined
I have total control
over fleshy geometry
I can read the signs
that others can’t find
and I know the secrets
you keep confined
I’ll hold you tight
but love you looser
we’ll bump
slip and grind
into the future
and take our place
with those of our kind
I’ll be your pupil
you’ll be my tutor
tongues might wag
but we won’t mind
for true love is deaf
and lovers are blind
7 March 2020
Déjà vu (Revisited)
was it animal waves
or the scent of blood
that baited the trap
that captured us?
we had ringside seats
but were with the gods
ours were edgy vices
those stolen moments
were crimes of passion
but you were seamless
in your auxiliary actions
I figured this was not
your fist time around
but had a queasy déjà vu
that vertigo of the libido
when you regurgitated
the standard disclaimers
and the magic was all gone
your words were so familiar
I could almost sing along
because I recalled the singer
who used to sing that song
5 March 2020
Just Desserts
naked as a peach pip
stoned as a cherry
my strawberry tart
wet dream topping
knicker-dropper glory
your raspberry fool
scoffs passion’s
bitter berries
forbidden fruit
baked in a pie
that fleshy pulp
juice sticky fingers
hot love sundae
my just desserts
apple of my eye
23 February 2020
Fantastic Tales
we were both
willing and able
with the usual caveats
in the conventional style
we hooked up
on the social network
where you first flashed
your rented smile
you told me
some orphan story
of routine betrayal
and stoic denial
you were the heroine
of every chapter
you told it so well
with no trace of guile
we were both fishing
for a little excitement
but I couldn’t commit
and you grew hostile
but I was enamoured
by your crooked geometry
and your fantastic tales
where fun for a while
.
21 February 2020
Ocean
I dreamed you were the ocean
and you called out my name
you said that if I joined you
we could end this worldly pain
I dreamed I was a sea shell
with the ocean trapped inside
and I called back to you
I’d swim out with the tide
I dreamed I was a dolphin
swimming in the sea
and I could feel your love
for you were part of me
I dreamed I was drowning
but didn’t seem to mind
for I was just dissolving
as you and I combined
.
25 March 2018
Ferrets
I thought I’d made a friend
I made more than a friend
I made a fucking enemy
I wish she’d pack her bags
And return to her ferret factory
I don’t need the hassle
Of an extra arsehole
It’s hard enough
Managing my own
She made a scene
But I really don’t mind
I could still have her any time
.
16 March 2018
Holy Cow
5 February 2018
Wrapped
15 April 2016
Sweet Nothings
In the post coital haze
when you’re fuzzy warm inside
Do you pour sweet nothings
into receptive ears?
What fragrant lies
escape your honeyed lips?
What sugar coated deceptions
slip between the sheets?
And in the morning light
do you cultivate a little distance?
Do you feign casual indifference
amidst stilted words and gestures?
Or do you simply simulate amnesia
with deliberate and practised poise?
.
29 April 2015
Thief
I wasn’t fazed when she shied away from my touch. I expected that, top bird like her. She didn’t just jump into a situation like that – didn’t give her affections away to just anybody. Especially the likes of me. I was an imposter and I think we both knew that, but I guess I fulfilled some need in her. I made her smile and I wasn’t demanding her life. I just wanted a little of her time.
29 June 2010
Wabi Sabi
Wabi Sabi
My darling you’re imperfect,
1
In every single way,
1
You have the kind of smile,
1
That darkens any day,
1
You frighten little children,
1
When they come out to play,
1
Your countenance is glorious,
1
Your anger to inveigh,
1
Your temperament's notorious,
1
But I love you anyway.
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