some slipped away incognito
others turned sour their cream
had curdled I don't give a fuck I had a good time I got my own monkey business and a boneyard for my bygones what's buried there is buried real deep and locked up tight so it don't bring me down I live in the now it's the only space left me and I like to make hay while the sun still shines
13 October 2018
Monkey Business
12 October 2018
Solitary
the threat of silence eternal
will not drive me
into the arms
of honorific whores
who perform gratis
acts of quiet desperation
in the hopeless quest
for something more substantial
.
I'm a solitary instrument
who keeps his own council
I'll never impart my sorry tale
to another living soul
I buried my burdens deep
but I watch them all the while
for there are promises I keep
and promises I deny
.
11 October 2018
Daisies
Hangover
we’re running low on drinks
this party’s hit the doldrums
and as the morning sinks
we godless frozen forms
pitch headlong into ashtrays
and empty bottles counted
then recycled in the telling
like the evidence that’s mounted
in the stories you’ve been selling
so paint me black in tales of woe
and fabricate the reason
to justify the fatal blow
and your final act of treason
.
9 October 2018
Mandy
3 October 2018
Insatiable
I shed a score
every time
I went
to the well
soon I was skint
and the well was dry
those are the dues
owed the
golden monkey
when your appetites
outstrip your means
and gluttony
obscures your reason
.
2 October 2018
The Final Link
I seen you in your big boots
threshing out your grapes of wrath
you only harvested bitter fruit
from your black vineyards
but you could never touch me
or the dope that I had stashed
even then I knew too much
to take your shit to heart
.
they say the sins of the father
are meted out to his sons
I guess you merely did
what own father had done
but that shit stops right here
I won’t let it go on
if I’m a link in that bloody chain
I’ll be the final one
28 September 2018
Judas Kiss
it’s not the stranger danger
but the et tu bruti
you have to beware of
there’s no more bitter repast
than the judas kiss
served from
treacherous lips
straight to the heart
and she took a piece
mucky little tart
we were only casual
I shouldn’t really care
but she took a bite
and she left her mark
somewhere between the folds
of my deepest dark
.
22 September 2018
Sleepless
nowhere to rest my head
no cradle for my dreams
I pace the lonely hours
just bursting at the seams
I measure dusk ‘til dawn
and see them back again
I’ve little need for sleep
I have a faulty brain
in the cold grey dawn
I feel as thin as rain
it’s mornings such as these
could drive a soul insane
.
18 September 2018
Kingpin
kudos to the big beasts
and the fabled ocean riders
ixnay on the dharma jockeys
and the children of the sun
I am stand alone dysphoric
quartered by the meat racks
sliced down to the bone
I shall complain most bitterly
to my trusty dictaphone
.
see that bastard smile?
that’s the local kingpin
and he’ll turn away no more
I’ve got the essential matrix
that the cunt is looking for
he’s a fucking lean machine
and an arsehole to be sure
but he’s the only gig in town
there’s nowhere else to score
.
16 September 2018
Coffee
it calls for extra coffee
on those pale mornings
when my remnant dreams
still cling as shrouds
to another me
in some other world
and the cold grey sun
s – e – e – p – s
little shards of heaven
to prick my sleepless eyes
.
I’m as tired as an old joke
told in a funeral home
I feel like a dirty burlap sack
full of ossuary bones
I’m the prolapsed organ
they dare not resuscitate
and quite symptomatic
of a broader demographic
of disenchanted and careless
mercenary vagabonds
12 September 2018
Parade
I’m no knocker
no tattle tale
but I was at the front
of her big parade
remember me?
I was the arsehole
with the big bass drum
counting steps
and keeping time
with regimental
precision
.
everything was cushty
everything was sweet
until the rain
put the mockers
on her big day
there were tantrums
there were tears
she put on quite
a performance
and in all honesty
she preferred it that way
.