I think about
her still and I grieve she was never truly mine but even lies are sacred to lovers me,
I'd never exiled anyone before they usually
perished in accidents of trust coz I
don’t believe in much but I still believe
in love everything happens for a
reason the truth will bear that
out I can’t see that she’s to blame though I played it like a chump
they say god has no religion
so, he does not pray
you see, faith is a killer
take that away and…
hell no, that’s not for me
I have a light burning inside
chalk it up to ignorance
or perhaps self-deception
but I’m not alone
while my candle is lit
going down it’s hard as hell
coming up …it’s
sudden vertigo
and you?
do you still have empathy?
lord, save our souls
we’re going down
into the ground
protect us from doubt
leave us numb
no room to maneuver
no food for thought
sleep will
not touch me now neither will I dream it’s not my conscience again it’s not what it might seem they say there are no bad men only bad situations and I’ve lived through situations maybe I brought them on myself tell me, what difference does it make? we suffer just the same from things we haven’t done everybody’s innocent according to their tales we are all just victims of circumstance wrestling ghostly shadows naked
and alone
they locked
me up for speaking my mind because truth is violence in their insane world I was drunk on freedom and the license it gave me but to think too deeply is to dig your own grave I was drunk on freedom but
I overreached now I’m the odd man
out in a party of strangers queer bedfellows both orphans and strays in this menagerie of singular outsiders I
found a voice to unlock their
secrets yes, I found a voice but it was not my own
same old same old here I am, back in the dock again I guess it’s too late now to plead insanity so what’s my excuse? I’m picking at old wounds might even tear me a few new ones but I can’t help myself some memories have sharp edges and weigh heavy on the heart there’s pain at the core of everything sometimes I can’t see it but it’s always there like
worms gnawing on my bones or lice crawling through my hair
