those memories that echo sunlight forever held within your mind worth more than gold or tea from China these are the treasures of your life
20 March 2024
stupid
people are stupid that’s my defence external forces motivate my actions I’m one of the masses singularly thick collectively crazy I don’t sweat it I drown my sorrows you won’t catch me with native intelligence and you can’t pin me down with your phony logic I’ll keep the council of my blind and foolish heart I say we press on and dance with the devil he has credentials that ensure his success we don’t have to think we just have to follow we don’t have to march while he makes us run
18 March 2024
frankenstein
there’s an air of quiet death about this house there are ghosts in every corner there are shadows there are doubts I’m being scrutinised by the inner eye I’m naked and alone with nowhere left to hide I murdered you to resurrect you once more in the laboratory of my mind you’re a stain that still needs scrubbing in the life I left behind I buried you deep and hid the shovel but you’re back again and causing trouble it’s a curse to have a conscience I thought that we were quits I don’t need to hear you crying I counted every tear you shed don’t make me relive this shit just get the fuck away from here get out of my fucking head
17 March 2024
tribal
did you scan the broken icons? the
debris of heroic purpose? the fetishes of pain? here's
another dismal harvest of broken bodies and perished dreams security through violence no world without us we kill to live and live to kill I'm in awe of the awful symmetry in that
design I understand the tribal imprint the allure of us and them but
I'm a little older now and no longer
play the game that doesn't mean I'm safe it simply means I'm sane
16 March 2024
feline
older now but clearly no wiser I showed a little interest lapped it right up the cat that stole the cream but I won’t be neutered by sympathetic vibrations ‘no one fucks like that – unless they really mean it’ was that an accusation? was it a compliment? I showed a little interest for a moment you were everything but you murdered that moment when you put it under the microscope you murdered that moment and I’m over it now…
14 March 2024
entangled
it takes two to tangle in the dog eat dog but I’m resting my voice before I take another pounding my opening gambit was all cotton candy but my final word meant nothing at all I’ll ease on out on my magic pillow to take a repast that’s at least free of sorrow I might be back I might not bother but if I do change my mind you’ll see me tomorrow
10 March 2024
money
money has power if you choose to believe it some people just don’t care about money other’s care about nothing else here I am sitting in my bed reading my I.O.U’s I don’t care much for anything because beauty is a whore and money is her pimp I have no taste for poverty nor for honest labour that’s why I’m a thief I will not serve a master but I will not want for money I’ll take what I’ve got coming I’ll steal before I earn
4 March 2024
cyclops
there are no flies on you coz you’re the dog’s bollocks and the sun shines out of your arse you’re quicker than the devil but more grounded in reality you’re so single minded in your every conceit and brother you can talk you can talk yourself blue chew my fucking ears off go on, demonstrate the folly of your words you hate this you hate that the world pisses you off... truth is a matter of ingenuity we are what we pretend to be and you pretend to be wise but your wisdom is a ticket to hell coz shit gets under your skin there’s no defect in your vision you’re just selectively blind you’re so busy with the wrong you refuse to see the light that the good outweighs the bad to anyone with sight
2 March 2024
torquemada
questions circle like vultures but I’m not running away I’m
running towards I changed my face to fit the frame you could say I’m in disguise I don’t forget the things I’ve done man, I nearly choked on them but I got over it and now I’m on the gravy train but I had to give it up you know what I mean? I had to give it up pack it in and snuff it out no
embers left to fan but there are
questions always questions I’m not afraid of questions I
have one for you what the fuck do you
want? you don’t have to answer you might not know the answer some questions can’t be answered and some answers can’t be questioned is love
always the answer? or is love sometimes
the question? I suppose it makes no
difference to me because
I keep my own secrets and bear my stripes
without complaint
28 February 2024
terraplaning
a smattering of raindrops pepper my window panes their ragged trails are bleached by another thorazine moon a thousand dark misgivings are nesting in my brain a swarm of ravenous locusts are wheeling on the wing there’s space beneath the blankets I’m slipping through again strange fruit and poplar trees I’ve seen this place before I’m talking to some woman I sense that she’s a friend I seem to know her face but can’t recall her name the local boys are rowdy on tonic wine and beer I’m peeling away my skin it’s a reptile house in here I can hardly breathe I’m running out of air someone is calling my name but I don’t seem to care I’m all fucked up again a little worse for wear is what’s inside leaking out? is what’s outside crashing in? I tore these words from the paper and pasted them into the void it’s a menagerie of countersigns a procession of disjointed images that could signify anything but most likely don’t it’s the dark side of morning and no one gives a shit most of us are sleeping perhaps I’m sleeping too maybe this is a dream I hope it is a dream cause if this is just a dream I could make an escape I could dial myself a ride and terraplane away
24 February 2024
denial
some lies are more useful than facts some facts are too hard to bear I’ve often indulged to excess in sex and drugs and wine and lost myself in the labyrinth of my fickle polluted heart of all the liars in the world the human heart reigns supreme but then it’s easier to disseminate falsehoods than it is to tell the truth things are made to happen somebody makes them happen so never do anything you can’t later deny surely facts mould fictions and the truth is often eclipsed by something more convenient these are not just words this is my religion I am my own god here to drink and fuck and fight and my truth is beautiful even if it’s hard to swallow because the truth feels like an insult to people in denial but let me tell you this there is one great truth there is one great lie they amount to the same they can both be denied
23 February 2024
teflon
I won’t cry foul I never was a victim I play the hand that’s dealt me and accept the consequences so go ahead and cast your stones no one is above criticism but some bear other’s faults jealous tongues spread bad news and magnify the false but I’ve broken no earthly law save the laws of prudery I sleep wherever I’m welcome and reap whatever I sow my critics only strengthen me their inhibitions make me bold my difference is a source of pride I’m unaffected by the crowd but if I walked a mile in their tight shoes I might just hate me too I’m a libertine by nature I never followed rules and I refuse to be held accountable by puritanical fools