she always returned affection
she said she felt obliged
I told her she was easy
and she did not reply
.
she always returned affection
she said she felt obliged
I told her she was easy
and she did not reply
.
there’s a niche
for every parasite
within the human zoo
where there’s pain
there is also gain
in a bitter economy
where one man’s sorrow
might be the cause
of another’s rejoicing
.
don’t tell me
how bad it is
I already know
it’s suicide season
and I’m all out of bullets
but geared up for excess
bicarbonate of coca
the ancient inca curse
smother me with candy kisses
take this poor boy home
it’s the last big deal
coughing up rocks
and surfing on air
but it’s all good
at twice the price
they’re shanking junkies
down in the park
bloody lubricant
for a vicious mechanism
those black market forces
can be so exacting
but my hands are clean
I’m just a punter
looking for fun
.
all the pretty soldiers
got their death heads on
it’s a morbid culture
where we sanctify sacrifice
but sponsor its betrayal
we were only following orders
not that much has changed
it’s a different religion
but the same old excuses
we gather poppies in peacetime
to decorate the graves
of those whose lives we’ve stolen
but no-one can explain to us
just why they had to die
Carlos and me
were getting high
and talking about
the end of the world
he was heading for the beach
presumably to swim away
I planned on getting drunk
and staying that way
until it all burned down
I had just thrown my funeral
while I still had the time
but nobody showed up
I guess they had their own
funerals in mind
there was a lot of it about
the world was duly penitent
but it was a little overdue
we tried to make our peace with that
but there was no peace to be found
.
you should never have returned
there is nothing for you here
this is a land of ghosts
where people come
to bury their dreams
under layers of denial
and silent despair
.
I was in the building
when the auditors arrived
year zero
lights out
advanced decay
the news was grim
no-one survived
all reader enquiries
were stuffed into body bags
and buried in the basement
with the unclassified documents
I swabbed the whole apparatus
with anti-static juice
but the questions
just kept rolling in
they were arriving
on the October timetable
though this was early June
I tried to make up the distance
before my arrest
closed me down
then they decided
that to save the library
they had to burn all the books
it smelled of hopelessness
and it smelled of betrayal
it smelled of Auschwitz
and it smelled of fear
.
there may have been
some reason
for my wild elation
I think I had forgotten
to take my medication
I simply don’t remember
I try not to forget
but if there’s method
to my mania
I haven’t found it yet
and I was high
so very high
on the night we met
you made it easy for me
to cross the killing floor
you told me with some certainty
that we had met before
we coupled in a frenzy
we had a physical rapport
and shared the kind of passion
that left me wanting more
but your words were less than kind
and cut me to the core
you said you’d had enough of me
and showed me to the door
.
poor boy is on the sauce again
but he shall fear no evil
coz he’s the coolest pilgrim
who ever took this ride
he rarely does the verbal shit
but when he sometimes does
it floats as sweet and delicate
as manna from above
he never has a point to make
and nothing to defend
poor boy doesn’t give a shit
he’s everybody’s friend
.
we set the fire
and shall harvest the ashes
out in the yard
they are flogging dead horses
swearing death oaths
and burying hope
they bury it deep
and stamp the dirt down
there’s scant hope of resurrection
into a world of carbon
further down the road
where the sun don’t shine no more
the names of our children
are scratched on stones
and the ghost machines are grinding out
obituaries no one shall ever read
.
in the bitter end
she simply shot on through
with the benefit of hindsight
it was the obvious move
her life was a burning building
she had nowhere left to turn
the papers said she jumped
but I say she was shoved
.