7 September 2018
The Last Dog
6 September 2018
Barley
this happy heart
will be the death
of poor me
I tilled the earth
then scattered
cancelling
my subscription
to the ever after
to carve myself
a solitary path
through golden
fields of barley
in the soft
summer rain
.
4 September 2018
Rental Dogs
3 September 2018
Golden Apples
channelling
exclusively
via satellitic intent
this monomaniac
is deeply fixated
on our nearest star
and that’s where
you’ll find him
from now on
lost in an orchard
dazzling bright
stealing golden apples
from the heart of the sun
.
30 August 2018
Tragedian
Sally threatened suicide
she did from time to time
it was no cry for help
but a demand for servitude
I’d have given her anything
under any other terms
but she came as the victim
of numerous insoluble crimes
her eyes were always offended
they were tuned to disappointment
she said she’d turned a corner
on another dead-end street
.
I felt the momentum
of some terrible gravity
dragging at my entrails
hers was a brutal surgery
born of desperation
the decision was mine
my choices were limited
by narrowing circumstance
to a fight or flight scenario
so I reluctantly opted out
but I still have a pillow for her
if she ever feels the need
.
27 August 2018
Jelly Beans
stop my mouth anaesthetise me I need panic pills merciful medicine my beautiful mutation is murdering me I’m withering into psychosis so nourish me pharmaceutically I know I’m bat shit crazy the world makes me crazy her beauty is fouled from the misuse of mirrors in the still of my room I’m gradually transforming into a psychiatric emergency
my
heart beats too loud I can’t hear me
think my life
no longer sparks I’ve been harvesting
my sickness I’m the effigy of moral
weakness I require psychotropic
medication it’s my rod my staff my crutch my blood is charged with electric
potential the bipolar extremities beckon
me I need some proper insulation faith is not enough
in the
shadow of existence where the dark
things flourish surrounded by tender
tyrants and outflanked by awkward
instance I’m a hostage to necessity and
have demons to placate I need a
little something added to my
recipe I require a magic bullet to
get me off my knees so get me an
extension I’ll call for some
assistance to feed me psycho quackery in the shape of jelly beans
22 August 2018
Joe the Movie
16 August 2018
Tin God
I was always frenzied
with my Aztec instruments
and my rituals inevitably
ended in an act of betrayal
and the archaic justifications
of injustice and tragedy
the theme of my soap opera
and the playground melodramas
I classified as historic crimes
.
I cast a giant shadow
in the kingdom of the pygmies
my erstwhile sycophants
were eager recipients
of my every crumb
that collective approbation
really warmed the ego
but I could remember when
I expected so much more
.
*Image: Mesoamerican god Xochipilli ‘Prince of Flowers’
.*
11 August 2018
Fat Bastard
9 August 2018
Immaculate
I just hopped off the bus
to fulfil my statutory obligations
I been zapped in the brain pan
by that solar radiation
if she had only seen me
back when I eclipsed the sun
she’d have a little more patience
with her beloved skid row bum
now she was feeling mystic like
and squatting on her haunches
she cast an evil eye on me
so I gave her beer and roses
I was coming off some slick machine
and was very nearly empty
this was in the morning after
on a day of rest and prayer
I played the messianic dope fiend
she made out she didn’t care
.
8 August 2018
Monsters
there’s no sleep for me
there are monsters in my bed
the creeping sons of chaos
just will not let me rest
.
they’ve fashioned lethal weapons
from my sacred memories
to lacerate my consciousness
with morbid fantasies
.
I plead not for redemption
that’s far beyond my reach
I bargain for the mercy
of eventual release
.
deliver me from kindnesses
invested in by strangers
I have no use for enemies
when friends will steal my tongue
.
this union of erstwhile companions
this compact of seasoned liars
have anointed me with kerosene
and lit my funeral pyre
.
6 August 2018
Meat
I could afford to laugh it off
it was only dirt being dished
and I’d heard it all before
my lips were sealed
so my hands were clean
but she had her snout in deep
and was up to her ears in shit
she ought to get herself a read
drop the plastic facsimile
of injured humanity
and learn how to dig deep
for something more substantial
than gaining friends and influence
through her poisonous inquisition
I’ll take no lessons
from some menopausal midlife crisis
and her alky reject fancy man
I could see it in their eyes
no fucking empathy
they see only meat
and they left me feeling raw
down at the bloody end
of their killing floor
.