pour me out of this wagon
I need my distillate of poison
I don’t care which brand
just pour it a yard deep
I’ll drink it and be damned
while the thirst is on me
I prefer to drink alone
there are issues to address
I’ll solve them glass by glass
from the comfort of my home
so sort me a fix that burns
I need that heavy stone
something to take me down
to somewhere I can hang my head
until morning comes around
.
they tried to pin me down
but I had the perfect alibi
they had a new prescription
they wanted me to try
they didn’t say as much
but they were after my high
they tried to box me in
with some misbegotten lie
woven with innuendo
and I knew the reason why
they said they were my friends
but they wanted to steal my high
they gave me words to drown in
words that were clever and sly
they were trying to sell me
some shit I could not buy
but I would keep my head
they would not take my high
.
we were both
willing and able
with the usual caveats
in the conventional style
we hooked up
on the social network
where you first flashed
your rented smile
you told me
some orphan story
of routine betrayal
and stoic denial
you were the heroine
of every chapter
you told it so well
with no trace of guile
we were both fishing
for a little excitement
but I couldn’t commit
and you grew hostile
but I was enamoured
by your crooked geometry
and your fantastic tales
where fun for a while
.
the spirit talks
she talks to me
I am part of her
she is part of me
she raises me up
to lay me down
for I am anointed
with the
fungaloid crown
we are lovers
in the great eternal
we are the children
of the universal
.
I dreamed you were the ocean
and you called out my name
you said that if I joined you
we could end this worldly pain
I dreamed I was a sea shell
with the ocean trapped inside
and I called back to you
I’d swim out with the tide
I dreamed I was a dolphin
swimming in the sea
and I could feel your love
for you were part of me
I dreamed I was drowning
but didn’t seem to mind
for I was just dissolving
as you and I combined
.
I don’t feel inclined
to get too specific
with the various articles
but the general semantics
were thoroughly labelled
before distribution
mine read PSYCHIATRIC
but you don’t get to choose
your own labels
three dope chimps
were questioned at length
but they saw nothing
they heard nothing
and they said nothing
silence is the friend
who never squeals
you never tell a sucker
what is on your mind
I never cut cute
with established procedure
I always play by the numbers
chances are I’m right
you get more hee haw
in the long haul
if you’re deaf
and dumb
and blind
dummy up weasel
and don’t tread on me
I’ve been shelling out
my ragged arsed blues
at your convenience
and now you’re pretending
that we’re all square
we both know you’re lying
and I’m claiming nothing
that was ever yours
when you wandered in
without the needful
I gave you my shirt
and a big bag of weed
but you are claiming
that you did for me
that’s not the way I see it
and I’m forced to conclude
you have a faulty memory
or a bad case of greed
there is something
to be learned
from every betrayal
and you taught me
the folly of generosity
there’s nothing here
for greedy arsed stiffs
who gobble up
the merchandise
and later plead poverty
I’m not disappointed
I expected nothing less
it’s in your nature
to bite the hand that fed
and it’s in my nature
to collect what I’m due
you don’t know it yet
but you’ll square me up
you’ll repay your debt
I’ll make sure that you do
.
I couldn’t explain our affair
in a month of bloody sundays
we made a splendid pair
and pledged forever always
but the nature of personal power
and the dynamics of intent
are written in the air
you have to be it to see it
to know that it’s unfair
that love is madness
and that love is unkind
that it brings us only sadness
when it renders us blind
.
