unscheduled hallucinations
and psychotic interludes
plagued my formative
and shaped my destination
my beat bastard subscription
lapsed before endorsement
but I wish I could lie down
take a fucking telling
I’m so tired right now
I could drag the world with me
through dark corridors
to the great panopticon
where elastic promises
and suicidal compacts
are made by strange bedfellows
there are no
casual acquaintances
in solitary confinement
I’m all jelly bone
and knee tremble
my brothel creepers
and crepe soul
slick with anticipation
tomorrow
is another
creosote sundae
but tonight
is a total eclipse
of reason
I bide my time
spilling my oats
on barren ground
to be washed away
in the menstrual cycle
my instruments
calculate trouble
word gets around
there are no secrets
in monkey town
don’t kid yourself
you know these people
just cause they button up
the same way you do
they got secrets to cash
and monkeys to feed
by day they hone
their grievances
forge alliances
and swear their oaths
as playground innocents
but at night
they are a different
species of stupid
when their kamikaze hearts
spur them to perform
localised atrocities
of obscene and banal
dimensions
you taught my tongue some tricks
I can weave real eloquently now
with a winning smile
and a twinkle in my eye
I've even fooled myself at times
we all want to believe in something
we all want to trust in someone
but I don't even trust myself
I'm dirty as the thirty pieces of silver
that secured my ounce of solid soul
and as deep as the phony veneer
that fails to conceal my corruption
so, ask me no questions
and ditch the disguise
save us both the effort
of more graceless contortions
as we make our goodbyes
.
they persecuted him
because they could
because it’s easy
to close your mind
to the different
and he was different
he was a peacock
amidst vultures
he was a libertine
in the company of slaves
he was a shooting star
who burned too brightly
and he was my friend
when there was no other
.
