time means nothing conventions are shackles are you in the mood to see something special? I don’t know I never did maybe I got religion it didn’t bring me joy I’ve seen this movie before I remember how it ends the sun shines cool and thin on the gilded palace of sin it’s an open casket affair the world is pale and weary in her winter skin these are the final days of our cockroach empire stupefied and dazed like so many dancing bears the latest, lastest craze oxygen deprivation we’re choking on our dreams our chemical castration it’s been a long time coming but we refused to read the signs it’ll be a long time gone before we make amends
22 January 2023
20 January 2023
cotton candy
I sleep like an old man half in half out somewhere in between dreams and memories wrapped around my head like winding sheets this is my death I die by degrees in the 3 am there’s no peace for the foolish and I have been foolish coz I got shit for brains and cotton candy for a heart
17 January 2023
in the kingdom of the blind
my one good eye blinked and just for an instant the world went dark I looked upon myself and silently cursed my fate I took a screwdriver to my mind rewired my persona but there was no relief from the literal devices that only brought me grief
everything’s a cliché practiced well enough this is a world of actors we simply have no choice it’s a question of survival we are mythology out of contention misdirected entertainers creatures in a zoo
but you don’t have to be afraid not of me I’m a misprint a blemish a social disease all that’s been eating you for the last ten thousand years are pre-packaged excuses and crocodile tears from where I am you don’t understand but I could be your guru I could be your holy man
13 January 2023
angel
she was a sweet thing that much is true but when I saw her at rhe window lit up by the morning light I thought she might be an angel sent to save me from myself but my angel had claws she’d been hurt before
I was a ragamuffin no fixed abode but I could talk the birds from the trees I laid it on thick with a big fuck off brush maybe I said too little maybe I said too much I guess I’ll never know my angel went away we didn’t stay in touch the taste of her lingers still the woman in the window what’s that the symbol of?
entropic
I don’t know the devil
but I know his ways I’m
familiar with deception and the
patterns of disgrace so strap me down or turn me loose it’s sad but it’s true I’m
overdue a jolt more power to my elbows more gleam on my machine I’m not strung out I’m just down but there’s a cure for those blues stashed in your arms
I had to bend I
had no choice I’m a man of straw a fool for hire I dry my eyes and blow my nose I caught a chill from deep inside baby, I’m hurt can you heal my wounds? I forgot how to fly so I’m learning to fall do you think god truly loves us? coz I reached out but he doesn’t answer my calls
30 December 2022
winter rain
she was too good to me I could never repay her kindness a certain amount of magic is necessary in love but all magic comes at a price my pockets were empty but my head was loaded any other weapon might have proved less destructive but I’m a killer with a killer’s destiny she spoke to me about heroin and death and love she tried to rehabilitate me but my heart was still captive to the oriental curse and I rewarded her devotion with slow burning indifference I smothered her with darkness and left her in the winter rain
21 December 2022
the yule tide
it’s something o’ clock on the astral calendar that time of the year I’m put in the stocks cause I am tangential to the status quo too fucked up to go with the flow I’m all jammed up and glued to the spot because hell is social but I am not
I’m out of sync with the conversation another symptom of my growing alienation a greyish catastrophe unfolds behind my eyes as another fraction withers away and dies it’s the same old singer it’s the same old song something somewhere is going wrong
17 December 2022
nauseous
I spent my last afternoon burning foil every day I went to the well till one day my bucket sprang a leak the arse fell from the world nausea had my throat and I was humping air and filthy water I’d found the entrance to the 7th level of hell I was dissolving in a puddle of puke my revulsion was purely organic borne on waves of reflux action I was sickened so deep my organs ached my ego has taken a bruising but I’m bound to get lucky someday I’ll come back and buy this town smother the bitch with gasoline and burn it to the ground
16 December 2022
the dreaded love machine
if only in my head I always felt free let’s call it cheeky or maybe libertine I seize opportunity rock hard and ready sheathed in latex gloves I’ve more than once been mangled by the dreaded love machine but I have no regrets no bitter feelings more than once I figured I was only dreaming
there are no substitutes in this life everything that is is what it ought to be we are all just dreamers and this is just a dream but keep the channels open you can call on me I will not be defeated by the dreaded love machine
12 December 2022
the colours of the night
the moon was slung real low in a big lazy coupe de ville so close I could have smashed her
windows but I don’t carry no
stones in my pockets I’m merely packing bones I beat the sun into an early
submission it’s gonna be
dark for some time to come
the world has dissolved at my fingertips I know every colour of the night they were revealed to me one layer at a time it’s
not so confusing I saw it for a second it flickered in and out the symmetry of being has never been in doubt
9 December 2022
drop da bomb
drop da bomb on all gods and monsters
drop da
bomb on the alpha dogs
drop da
bomb on the smiling killers
drop da
bomb on the social network
drop da
bomb on the tower of babel
drop da
bomb do us all a favour
drop da
bomb end this slurry culture
drop da
bomb before it’s too late
8 December 2022
the fifth wound
this is the year of the locusts the season of the pig they dragged me to golgotha and tried to paint me red don’t ghost me now just because you can you might need a friend further down the line it’s a small world and that’s a fact we were bound to meet again I drew strength from that I’m counting once for sorrow and hoping twice brings joy I don’t pray for silver I only pray for gold so come on help me out minister to my wounds don’t pin me up again with your psychosexual harpoons