I’m in the fucking dark here just
gasping for light flip
flopping on the shore caught on my
own hook nothing stings like the barb
of fear because there’s fear and then there’s the dread apprehension all emotions radiate from
the core anxieties I have shit festering
in my can that would sap your
will to live they lay in ambush my
denizens of the deep there’s no
respite they never sleep
don’t you just love being in control? isn’t power the name of this game? I shed a lot of friends when I broke ranks with the
stalinistas they are out to get me
still with their psychic
instruments and ugly rumours but I keep faith with my own
principles as befits someone of my
temperament and chemical impulse I
was vain I was ruthless I
was cruel all these charges are true but I’m no judge and
neither are you
I never swallowed the
big lie but I used it from time to
time when it suited me and
conscience allowed I reap as
I sow without complaint I’m
just one in a chain that spirals off
into infinity the songs of my benefactors echo in my mind and I’m free to choose just what I keep and what I leave behind
how far is too far? how close is not far enough? we left no stone unturned in our pursuit of pleasure but I touched you right? just as you touched me didn’t we burn down the night? and light up our days with incendiary passion brazen sinners who made our beds in heaven I have no regrets do you? if I erred on the side of foolishness I did so by your grace for your precious love
hear my voice on the recent collaboration with musician and
producer Calum Marshall: ‘Dagger’.
stolen kisses the knowledge of flesh that’s what I like I’m not going to bring you flowers I bring you blood I bring you fire I bear the awful gifts you secretly desire
and where do you
go? and what do you see? when you could be running wild with
me and with
the passing of the seasons when the
months roll into years there’d be a million different reasons why I’m almost always yours
hear my voice on the recent collaboration with musician and
producer Calum Marshall: ‘Dagger’.
my soul aches I’m tired sick and tired this life will be the end of me I’m
on my fucking knees here I made a call to jesus but he wasn’t home could be my fault I’ve been dialling a lot of wrong
numbers lately I finally got the
message I’m in this all alone I won’t call no more but where’s a boy to turn? my life is on fire and I have just decided
that I’d rather jump than burn
suicide help guide
