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27 February 2015

Ashcan

Ashcan

least said, soonest mended

so I dummy up nice

and batten down tight

stick it in the shade

and avert my eyes

from the unclean thing

that foul device

it’s just old news

bitter rebukes remembered

with a bullseye to the heart

I turn once more

down a path well trodden

but put the stoppers on

I don’t remember

or choose not to

those things that drag me down

who rakes for coals

in an ashcan full of yesterdays?

who fans the embers

only to burn his fingers

on what’s best forgotten?

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24 February 2015

Promethean

flames

what kind of monster am I?

I’m the man fortune made me

only as good as circumstances allow

and only as bad as I have to be

this heat and light are stolen

they obscure a multitude of sins

it’s an old cliché tailored to fit

and worn with a swagger

because I’m stepping tall

when I roll out my thing

this candle burns exceedingly bright

is neither hidden under a bushel

or extinguished in the night

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22 February 2015

Porcelain

Porcelain-Doll
At the eleventh hour she knew she could not fly, her mother had clipped her wings to minimise risk and circumvent adventure. Her limitations I ascribed to a troubled childhood, she was fragile, more doll than woman. Her porcelain was milky white and smooth as a babies butt. She was encompassed by phobias, riddled with irrational fears. She lived inside her head; perfectly manacled to her dreams.

She was married of course – to a stranger as it turned out. They collided on the periphery of their daily lives, never knowing the other with any depth. She possessed a wicked temper and drummed her heels in great tantrums which bemused the man; he had a phlegmatic nature. They never bit deep; there was no blood in that relationship.

I was there for a short while – under their roof – close to the hearth. I betrayed them both, as was my style. I could dig her skin and her brittle smile. I wasted little time in plotting her seduction. I presumed she had hidden depths as yet unfathomed and that I would be the one to draw them to the surface. An error on my part; her goods were on display, at the surface, they went no further than that.

It was a woeful misadventure; a giant tactical miscalculation. Often what seems exciting in the dreaming is fraught with sorry entanglements in real life. When it was drawn out into the light our dirty little secret seemed as retched as cum stained sheets. There was a scene and shown the door I left like a scalded cat. Some people are so uptight about a little play. There were tears, of course, but mine were from laughter.
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21 February 2015

Icarus

Icarus

How high is too high? How low is too low?

I’m stretched across impossible altitudes. I got the vertigo, that cold dizzying flush, but who cares when flying is suddenly so easy? I can see my life from here; it seems so small and lacking any real significance. What matters is now, this moment of flight, this instance of freedom. I’m reaching for forbidden constellations while my feet, caked in mud, are sinking into the earth. These unnatural avionics, they say, are the result of faulty wiring. Who needs drugs when you have aerial acuity and are filled with grandiose intentions?

Oh, this is cool – this is sweet. My trepidation gives way to exhilaration as my aerobatics become practised and concise. You never lose it, the power of flight, and having once flown you never forget the exaltation those wings of wax can bring. This apparatus has been well examined and its flaws are well documented, but I’ll milk this sensation for as long as I can. I’ll ride this fucker until I hit a cul de sac and slam once more into sodden ground. Crash landings are the price you pay for your time aloft; some reckon it’s worth the fee.

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